update number FUUUUUUUUCK

Ok just a short one to update my meeting with the specialist today.

First thing I learnt is never believe your local doctor as they know fuck all. First they tell me I have just sprained my shoulder then after they get the ultrasound report they say I have just torn the covering around the tendon and it will heal itself.
Well I call bullshit!!!!
Seems I have put a full thickness tear in the tendon of my right shoulder and was informed it wont heal by itself and will require surgery. So booked in for the 25th of this month which is cool as it is nice and quick. Unfortunately the killer is I will have my arm in a sling for a fucking month and will be off work for at least 4 to 6. He said it may take up to a year before it is as good as it will get.

I am stressing out a bit at the moment about what the hell I am going to do now. My insurance will run for 13 weeks max but it is only a pittance really which will mean my wife will need to increase her shifts. But what about the operation she needs?

So tempted to cancel and just live with it but he said if it isn't fixed now it may not be able to be fixed later without a lot more invasive surgery.

Too many things to think about at the moment, will let you all know what happens next when I do.

on a side note anyone need a one armed old fart to work for them?

Jack :(

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Well a big hello to the void that is internet blogging I am here to talk to myself again hehe.

This last fortnight has been interesting to say the least. Probably the biggest issue is the injury I did to my shoulder I mentioned in my last blog. Well got the results back and the good news is I didn't tear the tendon, the bad news was I put a 19mm hole in the covering around it so every time I use that arm for any sort of lifting or weight bearing, the tendon pops out of the hole and then back in again, which besides being painful is really freaky feeling. And this is on top of the bursitis I already suffered with in both shoulders. Damn who in their right mind wants to be a tradie for over 20 years? Should retire, damn but why did I party so much when I was young and piss all my money up the wall.

I took a week off to rest it a bit but as the earliest I could get in to see the specialist is tomorrow (Monday the 1st) I went back to work with it. I did use an extra guy to help out a bit but that cost comes out of my pocket so not really an option long term. I do carry income protection insurance but unlike work cover and the like, it only pays for a max of 13 weeks so I am waiting to see what the doc says tomorrow to see if I need it or not.

Along with this I find out my wife is going to need an operation to fix a pre existing condition, which would mean her being off work for at least 6 weeks too. Unfortunately we both can't be off at the same time so even though the pain in my shoulder sucks bad I am almost hoping the doc says we will just wait and see for me and I'll just keep plodding along and let her get fixed up first.

Work itself is going fine for the most. I could probably have even more than I do now but with the other worries I am content to just keep things ticking over. The new company I started working for seems ok so far. They have paid on time no worries, seem happy with what I am doing for them, and keep giving me more work. Funny though that I said I have some loyalty to the other mob I work for and will balance the work load between the two but I can already see rumblings going on when I say I am already booked. Oh well they can grumble all they like I told them both the deal at the start and if you want the quality my guys put out you will have to deal with it otherwise there are a million drug fucked cowboys out there to choose from. lol

Kind of feel life is in a bit of limbo at the moment with all of this though which I know has made me a little short of temper at times which I need to try to keep a handle on. Has meant I have put many plans that involve money on hold for the moment until this sorts itself out.
Never mind things always find a balance eventually.

On a more positive note, I did get a call from Progression Tattoo about coming in for a photo shoot the other weekend, which I was happy to do. Probably a good time to do it too as it was the first weekend I had free in ages and if I do need an operation it is going to be on that shoulder. Was funny though when I arrived as I was early as usual. I really am a little anal about being on time but I was glad I was. I was first in but when I walked out the place was packed and freaked me the fuck right out. God I hate crowds and I just high tailed it right out of there. Matt paid me out as I was heading to the stair with a "Hi Alan, nice to see you" which made me smile but I still had to get the fuck out of there. It's a stupid fear really as I have no issue getting up in front of 300+ people and cutting a promo but the difference is there I am playing a character.
Big sorry to Matt and Sam, Please understand I was not intentionally being rude and will pop in when you get back from your holidays to talk about some stuff and organise my next one.

I am going to have to suck it up and brave the crowd again this Friday night as I am off to see the Mars Volta at Thebby but at least I am going with 2 of my best friends so not alone. Then I have a show to do with Riot City Wrestling on the Saturday night. Two late nights in a row, damn but how will this old fart handle that? I see a week of 8:30 bed times to follow. lol

Oh well I better piss off and do the dishes before the wife gets home or there will be no spanking for me.

Until next time, love to those that accept it and a big fuck you to those that can’t.
Oh and to all those people that keep invading my dreams of late, can we get together in real life and have a few drinks instead as I need the sleep time to sleep but thanks for coming anyway. ;)

Jack

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Ok so I have been really slack of late and it's been weeks since I posted anything. For that I apologise to my one follower. lol
Oh and also to all my lurkers, yes I can see the stats of readers here so I know you are looking :P

It's been a mixed bag over the weeks since my last post and like life does it has had its ups and downs, but if it didn't life would be pretty boring now wouldn't it?

Home life has been pretty good for the most. Sure there are times we get on each other’s nerves but that comes with living in close proximity to each other and it soon passes. Kids are now on school holidays so are demanding more attention than normal. That's ok coz they have good imaginations and can make stuff up easy enough to be amused for most of the time and for the rest they like simple doing simple stuff like cooking and watching movies. We did venture out of the house yesterday to visit the Adelaide museum which they enjoyed and was free to boot = win! Found it funny that Mr. Ryan (my son) was more involved with the virtual interface consoles on the exhibits that the exhibit themselves. Seriously I could have left him at home on the computer doing a virtual tour and he would have been just as happy. I kept trying to tell him if he looks in the big box next to the screen he can see the actual items but they didn't have buttons to push so he wasn't interested. I think at 4 he may be developing some geek tendencies but oh well those guys own the world and I am gonna need someone to take care of me when I am old and on the pension.
My relationship with my wife has been ok too. We have had some good moments and some ok ones but nothing really bad so can't complain. I did discover that my wife should never play poker. Been two occasions in the past few weeks where we have been talking about things and her reaction and lack of comment on the subjects has said more than words ever could and almost caused me to laugh aloud at how obvious she was. But I love her and let it go and moved on. Really no point dwelling in the past and it isn't going to change anything in the now for better by pushing the subject so better to let it go.
Mind you if she ever comes into a lot of money and doesn't want to share I have a pack of cards at the ready. ;)

Work has been an interesting time. The building industry is probably at the lowest I have seen it in years. It is almost like the state people feared it would be when the introduce the GST but never happened. I know quite a few people who have now had to sign on the dole because they are not getting any work. I hope this picks up again after the end of the financial year but we will see, people are just gonna have to learn to work smarter is all. There have been a couple of young guys who have been downright nasty towards me because they think I am stealing all of their work. Sorry boys but it is your actions that cost you work not mine. See you thought I was the idiot by going the extra mile and solving problems instead of leaving them for someone else to fix or taking pride in what I do but it's these things that people remember and why when things get tough I am still working.
For the most I let this shit slide as they are young but they need to realize Adelaide is a small market and work is often gained by the recommendations of others. One small guy though has done his dash for sure. Stupid boy doesn't realize the favours I have done him of late and keeps running his mouth. I passed on a few jobs of late and had a day or two off to let him have one, and then even took one of my boys to help him finish a job because he was behind. We spent close on 3 1/2 hours there to pull his arse out of the shit and only told him it would cost him 2 hours pay, which is more than fair. He agreed but I am still to see any money and when I asked him about it after 2 weeks he flew off the handle about how he has bills. Silly boy we all have bills but you need to look after those that can benefit you first, hell I have paid people out of my mortgage before when builders have been late of paying me. It's ok though I won’t stress it but it will come back to bite him in the arse, hell I could have got him work with a new company now but it's not going to happen. Hope dole life serves you well. :P
Don't misunderstand me though I have been quiet too but we have also been smart. We have done lots of having days off followed by having to pump out 14 hour days to get the jobs done as quick as possible for other trades. Companies are thankful for the effort and give you more. I even had another new company approach me and offer me work which in this current environment is amazing.
The major issue I have at the moment is last Friday on a crappy site on the side of a hill I took a tumble and have done some damage to my right shoulder. Still waiting on tests and hopefully it is nothing major but seeing as it is nearly a week and I still can't lift my right arm above my head under it's own strength I doubt it. Got some more scans tomorrow so hopefully it gives some answers but I just want to get back to work. I have had to call in some extra labour to get jobs done and I'll keep organizing stuff to keep the boys ticking over but this could mean a couple of months off if it needs surgery which if it what they think it is it will.
Pisses me off a little that these builders get away with making us work in such sub standard sites. All they need to do is spread some gravel around the houses and down the driveway but no don't want to do that. Where are these safety inspectors when you need them? I am yet to see one on a job site yet. I can tell you now if I have done any permanent damage I will be seeing how good their public liability insurance is, hell I am not allowed to work without all the right training, licences, and insurances yet they get away with unsafe practices without any checks or restrictions. Well that might come back to bite you in the arse fellas.

On other notes, I am still having issues with some people in other associations I am with but I am slowly removing myself from those situations and that should be complete early next month. Seriously I don't need the bullshit and aggravation for something I do for free and I certainly don't need to be shown the lack of respect from those that have been their 5 mins and think their shit doesn't stink. Just because you might have a good idea doesn't mean you need to shit on everyone else that has worked hard for years to build it into a success. Most people around me are in the opinion of "Fine you do it then!" We have put our time and effort, not to mention money, into making things what they are but don't think we won’t just pull out and leave you to your own devices. I have already witnessed a slide in how things are run and nothing is being done until the last minute and no one is willing to put in any extra because there is no respect shown and worse we are criticized for what we do. Meh it's just politics and I won’t play, you win and your prize is you can do it all yourself tard. It's a shame because there are people there who I have a lot of love and respect for but I am not going to let tards think they can treat me like shit when I do it for free. Bummer that there is a show this weekend and I used to be excited to be involved but I am seriously just going through the motions at the moment. I will still do the best job I can but that is all I will do for now and things will be renegotiated soon I think.

Ah I think I have rambled on enough for now and I promise I will try to be more punctual with my blogs but hey, sometimes real life gets in the way of the interwebs fantasy world.

Love and respect to the few and a big middle finger salute to everyone else
Jack